I'm really going through some rough times right now. I want to shout out all of my problems to you guys, to the world, but I'm a private person and I'd have a lot of trouble doing that. But for the past two weeks my stomach has been in knots. I'm talking that I constantly have a lump in my stomach, my heart won't stop pounding, and I haven't been able to sleep. Oh, and I've lost all of my appetite, and i'm telling you, that NEVER happens, so you can tell that this is serious.
I hate this feeling. I am always anxious. I feel as if I am doing everything completely wrong. I am living off of Taylor Swift lyrics and I've been screaming her songs at the top of my lungs while crying. Because there is that one song that I can totally and completely relate to right now, and the lyrics hit me hard. I'm being really dramatic, but I believe that Taylor Swift is my therapist. It is possible that I will be posting either her song lyrics on here or a music video to get through this tough time.
I'm hoping that in the next couple weeks this feeling will go away and I will actually start sleeping again. I hope everything goes back to normal, how it's supposed to be. I hope I can start eating normally again and that I actually can eat more than a few bites of something without feeling nauseous.
Oh, and what I'm going through has completely sucked all of my energy and creativity out of me. I can't even blog anymore and I'm sorry. I try to write, but I never end up finishing a post.
I'm praying... a lot. And leaning on God for support. God is my rock, and I know He will take care of me.
Faith in God includes faith in His timing.
Goodnight.
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Oh man, I suffer from anxiety issues and it sounds like you are too. I had a really bad panic attack today. Email me if you ever want to talk!
Oh no! You're definitely in my prayers. I've had some recent issues with anxiety, so I completely understand that. It's exhausting and draining and just horrible! Praying!
It's ok to talk about your problems on your blog! Sometimes I think people only talk about the good stuff too much and it leaves us with a tainted view of reality/ a feeling that everyone else has perfect lives. Sorry for the struggle you are going through and I pray that it will get better for you. Also, LOVED your post from below- can't believe you've been with your bf since ninth grade. So stinking cute.
new follower :)
bonnie
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